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You might be onto something. [That's only half-sarcastic!] It's not like I've had a lot of chances in my life to empathize with other people.

[There's a beat as he processes what Harold has sent him. He doesn't miss how he refers to the clones as his sisters, and he isn't sure how to feel about that. He isn't sure how they would feel about that. Last Order, at the very least, would love it... maybe her feelings would inadvertently spread via the Network and the rest (excluding Worst) would be alright with it. He doesn't want to presume.

Either way, it's a fact that he's protective of them. After what he put them through he refuses to let them suffer unnecessarily ever again. Should he also consider them role models? Does he have any right to? Would they consider it overstepping, or would they see it as another step in his path towards atoning for his part in the experiment? Is he overthinking this?]

Assuming I should move on. I want them to be able to do that, but I don't know if it's a possibility for me. It's not like I'll ever be leaving prison once I go back home.

[More like he doesn't want to be able to.]

I assure you that you're moving on in one way or another, whether or not you think you are. Time passes with or without you. Things change, you change, in prison or outside of it.

Your only real choice is whether you want to control which direction you move in.

[This is Harold, so Accelerator trusts that he both knows what he's talking about and is being completely sincere. Because of that, he feels comfortable asking a personal question.]

You ever have a hard time with that? Choosing what direction to go?

I don't think I've ever had an easy time with it -- either the choice itself or with accepting that I need to choose.

[ His particular character flaw has always been trying to hide from hard things. ]

Then how do you decide?

[ He's struck, suddenly, with the memory of trying to convince the Machine that they weren't monsters, what he'd said then. ]

I don't wish to give the impression that I have it all figured out, that I succeed or make the right choices every time.

There is good and bad in everyone. But we do the best we can.

Hmm.

[That's reasonable. Maybe it was naive for him to ask that question. Harold is just a person, of course he's going to make the wrong choice sometimes.]

Then you won't get pissed off when I make the wrong choice?

[It seems like an inevitability, and he doubts Harold would based on the things he's told him in the past... but he still wants to ask, anyways.]