[ He told him... Harold actually hadn't expected that, and revises his estimation of their relationship and its level of information-sharing. Closer to he and John, then: personal.
He judges a flippant response would be unkind to Carver. ]
Someone being upset doesn't bother me. He was quite polite about it.
[ Maybe the answer would be different if Bossie had flipped his shit in front of Harold. Or maybe Harold Finch would just take it in stride every time Carver's lost his goddamn mind in public. You have to think about the equation, though. If the damage is compounded by repetition. ]
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[ And this is Carver following up. Possibly to contain the damage. ]
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He judges a flippant response would be unkind to Carver. ]
Someone being upset doesn't bother me. He was quite polite about it.
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He tell you war stories?
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He felt bad about it after.
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But it wasn't anything I feel warrants an apology.
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Exactly like that.
[ There's a long pause. Then: ]
I know we're not easy to be around. I know that.
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[ But he means it ruefully. ]
I don't mean to invalidate your feelings, or his. It just hasn't been my experience. If you're wondering what I'm thinking, then ask.
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I think I'm fucking it up with Bossie
That's all.
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Maybe you should say it to each other.
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[ He sits with that for another long pause. Maybe too long. ]
It's hard to shake sometimes. There were things we weren't supposed to talk about back home.
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But I think you already know that if you want someone else to put down their defenses, you should put down yours first.
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Think I want to try, though.
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It becomes so simple from that angle.
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When you let protecting yourself become a reflex, you also choose the consequences of that. It can mean other people pay the price instead of you.
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It was like that in the Reapers
I don't know what it looks like to step away from that
Think I want to try, though
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Yeah
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